I'm not loving this new addition to my body- the lines rest in my armpit and my chest is still sore.
Skype with my family is hard-- especially when Eve cries for me and tries to touch or kiss the screen. Breaks. My. Heart.
I know they are fine- just wish they were fine with me there.
Honestly, the waves of sadness are never far away. Yesterday, I let myself cry for a few minutes and then I wrote out a To Do for my day.
- I showered (very hard to do with my new armpit line-- the iv nurse was like, "do you have to shower?" I was like, "I'm here for a month!!! Yes!")
- I read and stitched and listened to inspiring devotionals online.
- I wrote some thank you cards.
- I went virtual shopping and got my girls two new summer outfits each, plus ordered me some new jammies.
- I finally convinced my drs to take out my old, sore IV. They wanted to keep two IVs AND a PICC line in me the whole time I'm here... Blah!! Yay for no more IVs!!
- They gave me a nice Do Not Disturb sign that lets me sleep through the night with no monitoring!!
- They switched my stress tests to weekly!
- They started drawing my CBCs in baby tubes so they aren't sucking out as much blood as they're putting in.
- I started lists where I write down the names of the doctors and the residents and a small description of them so I can remember who I'm talking to each day.
- I wore fun, striped socks.
- And, some friends from church came and spent the afternoon with me! It was so nice of them!! I had Todd buy me a magnadoodle, some play doh, and a bag of lollipops- so it was fun that I had something for my friends little boy to play with.
Yes, it was still a sad day-- but not a bad day.
I'm 29 weeks pregnant!!! Hoping for 5 more weeks!! (my surgery is scheduled for June 6th!! I'll be 39 weeks, 6 days)
It's worth the wait...
Here are some lovely pictures from my day::
I think of you often and a prayer is in my heart for you and your family! You are an inspiration and I thank you for that. Thanks for keeping us updated!
ReplyDeleteI am sorry you had a sad day. You are so strong, and so very inspirational as a mother, friend and woman in general.
ReplyDeleteI hope you get the rest that you need. You're growing a treasure inside of you. :)
tiffany's friend from dallas-still reading! and thinking of you lots and lots!
ReplyDeleteI lived in the hospital for three weeks like you before Caroline came at 29 weeks...this post brings back memories...weekends are the very hardest when you are in the hospital. I have no advice for it. It is just hard. But just know I am thinking of you-and I will think of you even harder on Saturdays and Sundays and hope those days are full of even more tender mercies.
PS-I missed the sacrament the most. Don't hesitate to find the local ward and ask for their priests to bring it to you...it is their duty and I know you will want ALL of your boys to do the same someday, right?! :) All three of them!
Oh boy Jen! I wish I was there so I could come hang out with you and read some Georgette Heyer books together! I think of you often and echo your sentiment. He is worth it.
ReplyDeleteMy heart aches for you. I get restless after about 10 hours in the hospital. I don't dare say hang in there because I don't even know if I could. But I know you will.
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