doing.

this week is busy.
i hate busy weeks.
yesterday, i looked at my home that is missing me already and told the professor
"i got nothing done today"
he reminded me that i had been going all day.
"nothing" in my home got done, but i was doing a lot.

this morning as i was waking up, i was reminded a sweet lesson...
it's not really about what i've done.  it's about what i'm doing.  right now.
i cannot re-do yesterday.
i don't know what tomorrow will bring.
but today, right now, i can be doing good things.
and, that is what God wants me to do.
choose good.  right now.
perhaps it is Satan who whispers the "should haves"
perhaps it is Satan who whispers the fear about tomorrow.

sometimes when a child is sassy with me... i think of their teenage years and respond with anxiety.
truth is, there is still time.  i can respond gently and teach.  i haven't ruined them yet.
anticipating is always worse than enduring.

life is like labor.
trials come on gradually, in waves.
if we can just endure what we're feeling right now and not panic about what the future holds, we can do it.
we are always given what we need in the moment we need it.

oh.  to have more patience, hope, faith, charity...

God has promised me...
"I will go before your face.  I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you, to bear you up."  (Doctrine and Covenants 84:88)

we named lily after the lilies of the field.  because she came to us at a time we didn't know how we were going to feed and clothe her...
"Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin: and yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these."  Matthew 6:28

"Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself.  Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof."  Matthew 6:34

"Blessed is that servant whom his lord, when he cometh, shall find so doing;"  (JS-Matthew 1:50)

This summer i want to be doing.
one day at a time.
one moment at a time.
breathing deep. 
walking with peace.

 remember this day?  it was good.  (You can read about it here.)