this morning i looked at her little face and thought her cheeks seemed a bit chunkier.
there is nothing more precious than a newborn.
how i love this little one.
this week has been beautiful and difficult.
i feel like i'm a newborn all over again.
my mom left Thursday morning, and the professor has been back at school working feverishly on his dissertation.
so, i was alone with a 3 day old baby, 2 year old and 4 year old.
on Friday eve had a doctor's appointment- at 11:30 am.
even though a friend of mine offered to watch leah and lily, i was still a mess.
it took me all morning to shower and dress and dress the kids and feed the baby and pack the diaper bag, and arrange the car seats in the Suburban...
and, i left my house a mess.
i had tears in my eyes as i wondered if i would ever be able to handle my life again.
bloody, blistery, sore.
yes, i know that is too much information, but it's true.
on Friday night i cried as i nursed.
hard moments this first week... yup.
but there have been MANY, MANY beautiful moments.
my eyes tear up just remembering.
i am so in love with this baby.
she is DARLING.
holding her, listening to her sweet newborn noises, feeling her soft skin against my cheek...
oh my gosh, complete joy.
my kids are really great with babies.
the BEST thing about having a large family is watching your kids interact with each other.
and there is something magical about having a baby in the house.
just watching my oldest with my youngest makes my heart swell-- God has been so good to me.
i also love watching my husband with my baby.
do you know, i have trained him well?
he is like me... how he swaddles and coos and bounces our newborns--
i see me in him, and i realize how far we've come these past 14 years.
i love watching him with the older kids.
i love sitting in my chair at night, nursing my baby, listening to my sweet husband reading Dr. Seuss to the little girls with his funny voices.
the best decision i ever made was marrying Todd... every day i thank God for him.
we have eaten well this week.
sweet, sweet friends have been bringing us meals--
and seriously, people are so kind.