Thanks to angels both living and dead.
I spent 2 hours in the zero gravity chair doing kangaroo care. Those were the first pain free hours I have spent since Ben was born. I felt peace as I flipped back to gravity.
There was soooo much divine symbolism in that rest. Todd had promised in a blessing that as I looked into my baby's face all trials would fade into mortality and I would feel intense gratitude and perspective.
I thought that was a one time event. I have learned that finding holy places, where I can look into ben's gentle, grateful, eternal soul have renewed me again and again. Like visiting the temple or partaking of the sacrament. I shout praises to a God of miracles who took interest in this one, very painful, very blessed momma. He has given me a way to press pause in the midst of my endurance
I am tired- so I can't blog well and I fall asleep while people are talking to me.
my blurry brain makes autocorrect tortuous. (sorry)
My feet/legs have been extremely swollen and feel like knives stabbing. It scares me- although pain is to be expected. Perhaps even long-term. Yesterday, my two middle toes felt better. Two of my toes that have felt like they were wrapped in rubberbands- felt better!!
My aunt said immediately following surgery I would cry that about my arms aching. Wha??!! My arms feel fine!
Drs continue to be amazed at my positive progress. We started a list to keep track of successes.
As I was visiting with one of my favorites (dr w). I jokingly asker her what she had done to me. She smiled and said- "not me! You choose this.". I laughed and felt a little more of my "just watch me survive" natural grit
I felt no pain for two hours!!!!
I can feel my body getting better ONE TOE AT A TIME!!!!
Life is beautiful.