Sunday is a busy day for our family.
We had to leave extra early to pick up one of our new church friends (who actually had open-heart surgery last week).
I enjoyed sitting with my little family as we took a whole pew at church. My kids were pretty good. We narrowly avoided one fist fight and had a few distracting notes to mom being passed. But, overall they were good kids.
Although I made a special trip to the grocery store on Saturday, I couldn't find my dinner ingredients anywhere. I must have left a bag at the checkout. Ugh. My plans for chili quickly morphed into spaghetti.
The worst part of today and yesterday is that I AM SICK! Fever and sore throat. Come on!? I'm ashamed to admit I was a bit mad at God over this one. I'm just trying to be a wife and mother- why does it continue to be so hard? Why couldn't I have gotten sick last week when I had back-up? I really think I could rock my life if I could just get to ride it with air in my tires.
I was blessed to talk to a sweet friend who re-lit my faith.
I'm not sure what my Heavenly Father wants me to learn. But, I am sure that He could make me well if He needed me well. Today, I can do exactly what He wants me to do with my limited capacity. I'm learning something this year... And I'm determined to learn with grace.
As I lay in bed feeling sorry for myself this morning, I thought of the pioneers. I heard them telling me to just keep walking.
I sorted the laundry.
Did you hear that?!!
I sorted the laundry for the first time in months!!
I shoved my washer and drier full of clothes and I felt so grateful to be here- doing this.
I was home with my two youngest and Anna who is also sick.
I was able to run Jakob his soccer things so he could play in his game today.
I made a big pot of chicken noodle soup for dinner and a treat for family night.
Leah ran over Lily's leg and I was here to hug and kiss her better.
Yes, I feel awful. But I feel grateful to be right where I am.
Julie Beck, a woman I love and admire, said, "You don't have to feel good to be effective."
I wasn't perfectly effective today, but I am grateful to be home.