After writing all my thoughts out yesterday, I felt cheery and bright. I couldn't help but wonder if the process of thinking and writing down my concerns actually changed me? Or, if I should have just waited a few hours and written a more positive blog?
Either way-- thank you AGAIN for all your hopeful, inspiring comments.
Yesterday was a good day. The two kids I had were miles easier than the three I'd had the night before. Friends came to visit and my aunt ate dinner with me. Nurses keep coming in to wish me luck and tell me they'll be thinking of us on Thursday. Doctors are excited and hopeful. I am AMAZED at their current optimism about my surgery- considering the months of ominous warnings I'd received.
Today, I think I'm in business mode...
I was transfused yesterday and my cheeks are rosy.
I'm meeting with anesthesia, packing up some of my room, finishing my sampler (not...), catching up on thank you cards, and preparing for surgery.
I have to wash a few times with heavy antiseptic wipes and fast over night.
Todd's coming to spend the night with me... Should be fun!
I'm having a baby!! Today is the last day I will get to hold a baby in my womb. What a gift pregnancy has been! I will miss this! I am humbled and grateful for the months I was given to sit, learn, and be still.
I'm not excited for the hard parts of tomorrow- but I'm excited that the day is finally here. I'm ready to do this. I just think- by tomorrow night my surgery will be over and I will be starting my path to recovery and learning to mother eight. Hard things will last for a time-- but they will pass and I will be left with enduring goodness.
Todd gave me a sweet blessing the other day and he said, "The moment you hold your son in your arms and look into his eyes, all your sacrifice will melt away and you will know everything was worth it".
I can't wait to meet this miracle baby. I already know him and I already feel grateful for the opportunity to carry him in my womb for the past seven months. Being a mother is one of life's greatest gifts. I am humbled and grateful at all the Lord has blessed me with.
I feel confidant heading into the future! Tomorrow is going to be my own personal D-day. I'm heading into Normandy and we are going to be victorious!
Having a baby is one of my favorite things to do!!
Tomorrow! Tomorrow! I love ya, tomorrow!! You're only a DAY aaaa-waaaayyyyy!
See you on the other side friends!!
(Just wait till you see what cute babies Todd and I make.)
Life is good!
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