October 14, 2013
i am thine.
"I am thine, save me; for I have sought thy precepts." Psalms 119:94
Today I am humble.
I'm a bit overwhelmed with little things and a bit cranky.
I found solace in these words...
I am thine, save me.
I pray, "Oh God. Here I am. I am tired and I need you, again. Forgive me for my weakness, my ignorance, and my sins. Bless me with healing and strength and joy. Help me to love more, to be humble, to be patient. Show me your power in my life. Bless my children. They are yours. I am thine. Please Father, save me." And He does. Every. time. God is real.
In a talk about Grace- "His Grace is Sufficient." By Brad Wilcox, He says, "Think of your friends and family members who have chosen to live without faith and without repentance. They don’t want to change. They are not trying to abandon sin and become comfortable with God. Rather, they are trying to abandon God and become comfortable with sin."
I hope we are living with faith and repentance. I hope we have made holy covenants with God. I hope we are praying daily for strength. But most importantly, I hope we are feeling His power in our lives every day. God is REAL. He IS blessing us. He wants to bless us.
Want to know what I honestly think about gay/lesbian marriage? I think these good people are trying to create a good, happy life together. Only, no matter how the laws of the land change or how loving and accepting society is, they will ALWAYS be thirsty for more. Because God's law is eternal. Marriage, between a man and a women is ordained of God. Children need both a mother and a father. This is an eternal law of happiness and safety and peace.
The real problem is NOT gay/lesbian marriage. The real problem is that God has given us all commandments and holy covenants and words of scripture that teach us how to be good so that we can have happy families. We are all living well below our privilege.
Are WE happy?
We have gotten lazy! We have forgotten Him. Christ has become our wise grandfather NOT our daily bread and water. Personal prayer, meditation and holy INSPIRATION have taken second place to Oprah, Dr. Phil, volumes of books written by imperfect people on parenting, worldly ideas of success, and just plain busyness.
God is REAL. He is our Heavenly Father and He wants us to be filled with joy. He has power to bless our lives, to teach us how to parent our children, to heal us and give us strength. He answers prayers. We need to spend more time seeking Him and less time trying to be happy without Him.
We have gotten proud! When did PRIDE become a virtue and HUMILITY a vice? We are too capable. We are so smart that we can't see how little we know. We have so much to eat that we don't even realize we are starving ourselves. When we feel our weakness we just try harder to compensate for them. Sometimes I think we need to give up and fall into GRACE.
I love this verse in 2 Corinthians 12:9
"And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."
I want the POWER of Christ to rest upon me.
I found solace in the words of a man I believe to be a modern-day apostle of the Lord Jesus Christ. Elder Bednar gave a beautiful talk "The Windows of Heaven" about blessings that come from paying your tithing. I believe he could have given the same talk about obeying ANY of God's commandments. As we do what is right we qualify for great blessings. We need to SEE and FEEL God's hand more in our lives. I love these words as Elder Bednar describes blessings that are "Significant but subtle."
He says, "Sometimes we may ask God for success, and He gives us physical and mental stamina. We might plead for prosperity, and we receive enlarged perspective and increased patience, or we petition for growth and are blessed with the gift of grace. He may bestow upon us conviction and confidence as we strive to achieve worthy goals. And when we plead for relief from physical, mental, and spiritual difficulties, He may increase our resolve and resilience."
I LOVE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!
Sometimes, WE PETITION FOR GROWTH AND ARE BLESSED WITH GRACE.
God doesn't always give us miracle grow. He doesn't always take our puny beanstalk organization skills and advance them into perfect homemaker as an answer to our prayers. He doesn't always zap our young children into perfectly behaved and mature specimens or make us holy, patient, and completely put together mothers. Sometimes as we are praying for GROWTH-- He blesses us with GRACE.
Today, I want His grace.
I want to fall down at His feet empty and know that He is filling me up.
I want to be His child and rock for a moment with Him.
Today, I want to stop trying and thinking and planning and worrying and just listen while He tells me what to do next.
Because I know Him, I know He loves me imperfect. He is waiting for me to remember Him and return to Him.
I am thine, save me. For I have sought thy precepts.