(do you know a funny thing i do? i always start my private prayers, "Dear Heavenly Father, it's jen." i know He knows my voice, but...)
ok, so this is my problem.
my sister-in-law, lanette, told me that she never looses weight until she RUNS. like 3 miles. at 7 on the treadmill.
and now, i'm trying to run, and it's kickin' my butte' (pronounced boo-tey).
i hate it.
but i'm workin' it and if i keep this up and i still don't loose weight then i'm DONE. :)
i KNOW you'll tell me it's not about weight. and, i don't care what you say.
for me, it's about NUMBERS because i want to SEE progress.
i KNOW i'm a whiner I KNOW i'm not over-weight. but i don't care. dang it. i want to be able to loose 5 pounds if i put my mind to it. and, i can't. i can't even loose ONE pound.
this is why i NEVER exercise. it doesn't work for me.
and... don't tell me it's what i eat. cause, it isn't. i eat rabbit food. i'm very healthy.
(but i am trying to be better... i'm TRYING to go without carbs till a normal dinner...)
and... i'm sorry to any of you reading this who struggle with your weight, because i don't, and IT'S SO HARD!! i feel your pain. and, i'm sorry that i'm skinny and whining. and, i'm sorry to those of you who wish you could go to the gym and can't... because i can go and I HATE every minute of it. HATE IT!!.
i pray everyday that i will like it. i pray that God will help me get addicted to exercise. right now, i'm addicted to "sit my lazy butte' on the couch and read a book"... but i want to be healthy and active and strong.
and i will be. because even though i complain... i'm a strenuous striver. i keep on keepin' on.
back to my problem.
MY TOES HURT.
really only my middle toe on my right foot.
(yes, my middle toe is longer than my big toe.)
it feels like my nail is going to come off.
i don't think that my shoes are too small.
maybe it's normal. maybe i'm running wrong...
and now, my right ankle is hurting.
i don't think i'm injured, just that i could injure myself if i don't do something different.
(i am pigeoned toed... does that have anything to do with it?)
it may have to do with the 2 times i've fallen off the stupid treadmill.
i'm quite coordinated.
(my cd player broke and then i couldn't find the cd... it was in the row ahead of me... my cd player and me went backwards... the cd went forward. no more "gene r cook, teaching by the spirit" while i'm cussing under my breathe... these details were for shelley... have a good laugh baby, i fall because when i run for a minute i start to get a little pride and God humbles me... thwack.)
any tips on how i can not loose the one week i've already invested on faster running... and still be sure i don't hurt my ankle more?
so, sore toe, sore ankle.
honestly... my WHOLE stinkin' body is in pain. i walk like an 80 year old woman. but, the toe and the ankle are my only concerns at the moment.
can you help?
ps. really i'm grateful for my sore, lazy body... we're getting stronger together. slowly but surely.
NOTE--- I LOVE reading your running comments!! I LOVE advice, so please keep commenting if you think of anything else. I cut my toenails really short, AND, they don't hurt anymore.
I'm not sure yet if i need new shoes, i do have pretty good running shoes (thank you tjmax), but they might not be right for my feet. OR... i may just have a minor injury from my death-defying leap from the attacking tredmill.
AND... i tried running outside.
it was a beautiful foggy morning, the professor and i got our lazy bums out of bed and ran around a pond... the trees were romantic and the geese cheered us on. it was still HELL. but a better HELL than the gym. (and, i can tell i'm getting better because my whole body didn't ache yesterday... just my ankle... progress!!) someday i may like to run. today, i like trying to like to run.
(ps. the professor and i tried a spinning class when we first joined the gym... the class itself was fine, but we were so sore- between the legs- afterwards that i could hardly wipe my bottom when i pottied. and, it wasn't great for our intimate life... OWCH!! maybe, when i'm braver, i'll try again.)