What do you do when you feel the crankies pulling you down?
I eat healthy.
I choose to be grateful.
I listen to good music.
I serve others.
I ponder, pray, and study good things.
I apologize quickly for my mistakes.
I seek healing.
I keep trying.
I went for a walk this morning, bringing my dog who is no longer safe in our backyard and is as stir crazy as the rest of us. Rocco has learned that he is an Olympic leaping dog who jumps fences with finesse and ease. Outside the fence is more fun than inside the fence. Thank you, 4 foot snow piles, for teaching our pup this skill.
Rocco listens very well to me, I thought. But his "heal" only lasted until we got near the road and he ran right in front of a car going 50mph. I still don't know how he wasn't killed. (I screamed and closed my eyes.)
We are moving into the electric shock stage of dog parenting. My moral opposition to shocking animals has been replaced by my moral opposition to watching animals get hit by cars.
Our walk was definitely good exercise, but I'm not sure it was relaxing to my nervous system. Ha!
I have laundry that would circle the globe, and I still haven't put away my own laundry from last week.
I have had an extra 18 month old over night because his brother has a heart scan early this morning and his mom needed a sitter.
I have friends coming for dinner tonight, then I'm watching their kids till late. After inviting them, Todd found out he had to work late and then go straight to the training meeting.
I have a play-date tomorrow and a mall scavenger hunt birthday party tomorrow after school.
I love when I'm busy doing good things.
This is going to be a great day.
“While young Gordon B. Hinckley was on his mission in England, he received some counsel that has served him well throughout his years of challenging responsibilities. Being somewhat discouraged, he wrote a letter to his father, saying, ‘I am wasting my time and your money. I don’t any point in my staying here.’ After some time, he received a short letter from his father that said: ‘Dear Gordon. I have your letter. … I have only one suggestion. Forget yourself and go to work. With love, Your Father.’
“President Hinckley said of that moment: ‘I pondered that, and the next morning in our scripture class we read that great statement of the Lord: “For whosoever will save his life shall lose it; but whosoever shall lose his life for my sake and the gospel’s, the same shall save it” (Mark 8:35). It touched me. That statement, that promise, in conjunction with my father’s letter, prompted me to go upstairs, … get on my knees, and make a covenant with the Lord that I would try to forget myself and go to work. I count that as the day of decision in my life. Everything good that has happened to me since then I can trace back to the decision I made at that time’ [ videocassette (1994)].
I have been a homemaker for 16 years and I still haven't surrendered to my life completely. I want to trust God with my life but there is one chunk of rebellion that I just hold onto.